Welcome Kathleen Pooler, author of memoir, Ever Faithful To His Lead : My Journey Away From Emotional Abuse. Kathleen's guest post speaks to the often difficult task of caring for yourself first before you are able and strong enough to care for others. Her experience in nursing has taught her this lesson and it is one from which
we can all benefit!
A
Nurse Learns to Care for Herself
by Kathleen Pooler
I’ve
known I wanted to be a nurse since reading Anne
Snow, Mountain Nurse while sitting in my eighth grade study hall in 1959.
My heart pounded in my chest as I envisioned myself being like Anne Snow and
riding a horse through the Virginia mountains to minister to people in their
cabins.
I also
had inklings before that when as an eight year old, I watched Grandma Lydia
feeding an injured bird with a water-soaked cotton ball. I don’t remember what
happened to the bird, but I do remember the Grandma’s compassion in trying to
nurse it back to health.
As the
oldest child in my family, I enjoyed taking care of my younger siblings.
The idea
of caregiving—helping others in need—seemed to take root early in my childhood.
Once I
started nursing school in 1964, I knew I had chosen the right profession. How
blessed I have been to feel the call to become a nurse and never waver in that
desire.
As
caregivers, nurses help clients achieve maximum wellness and regain health
through the healing process. The cornerstone of the profession is the concept
that the client’s welfare comes first. Caregiving and nurturing have been
associated with the nursing profession.
But what happens
when the nurse needs caregiving?
Like me,
when the man I married drank too much and left me exhausted and confused; when
I was forced to live my life as a single parent and became the sole supporter
of my two young children. I still had to
go to work and care for others.
Nurses
are terrific at caring for others but often lax in recognizing their own needs.
Equipped with the mantra that “clients come first”, a Catholic Faith which encouraged
selflessness and service to others and a time in our society—the 60s ad 70s--
when the woman was expected to do it all, I fell into the trap of living my
life as others expected.
I
suffered, what is now called “compassion fatigue” (http://nursingworld.org/MainMenuCategories/ANAMarketplace/ANAPeriodicals/OJIN/TableofContents/Vol-16-2011/No1-Jan-2011/Compassion-Fatigue-A-Nurses-Primer.aspx)—focusing
on alleviating the suffering of others at the expense of my own needs. I lived
with a constant anxiety, suffered bouts of depression, loneliness, poor
self-esteem and made unhealthy choices about relationships. I ended up falling
into an abyss of self-defeating detours and heartache.
But, I
still had to go to work.
How did I learn to
care for myself?
When the
pain of my decisions became acute enough—what I kept doing was not getting me
where I wanted to go—I began accepting my responsibility in making necessary
changes. I stopped denying. I stopped the magical thinking. I took action to take
care of myself.
I had an
“attitude adjustment”: It was not selfish, It was lifesaving.
I began
to feel compassion for myself; to offer the same kindness and understanding I
offered others to myself. I was able to break out of the perceived expectations
I had about who I was and what I needed.
It was a
process that took time but the more I focused on my own needs, the easier it
became. And the better I became at offering care to others.
Like the
airline attendant advises: Put your oxygen mask on first so you can care for
others.
What specific
actions did I take?
1. A
change in attitude about myself helped me be more compassionate toward myself. This required breaking through
the denial and magical thinking to see things as they were, not as I wanted them
to be.
2. I
learned to say no to activities that did not feel right and yes to activities
that enhanced my life. This
required listening to and honoring my inner voice.
3. I
committed myself to a healthy lifestyle of proper exercise and a healthy diet.
4. I
continued to journal and express my feelings on the page. This helped me to gain clarity
and focus about my personal needs.
5. I
developed a support system of friends whom I trusted. I
learned to avoid people who did not have my best interest at heart. In my opinion, discernment is a skill that
requires practice. Many lessons were learned through trial and error.
6. I
become more open to my faith. Prayer became a natural part of my day.
7. I
learned to “put my oxygen mask on first.”
Putting
myself first is the best way I can take care of myself so that I can be
available to extend that compassion to others who care for me and whom I care
for.
How about you? Have
your caretaking needs interfered with your ability to take care of yourself?
How have you learned to take care of yourself?
I’d love to hear
from you. Please leave your comments below~
A young woman who loses sight of the faith she has been brought up with attempts to find her way in the world, rejecting her stable roots in lieu of finding adventure and romance. Despite periods of spiritual renewal in which she receives a prophecy, she slides back, taking several self-defeating detours that take her through a series of heartbreaking events.
When Kathy's second husband, Dan's verbal abuse escalates, Kathy finally realizes she must move on before she and her children become a statistic.
How does a young woman who came from a stable, loving family make so many wise choices when it came to career, but so many wrong choices when it came to love, so that she ended up sacrificing career and having to flee in broad daylight with her children from an abusive marriage? What is getting in her way and why does she keep taking so many self-defeating detours?
The story opens up the day Kathy feels physically threatened for the first time in her three-year marriage to her second husband. This sends her on a journey to make sense of her life and discern what part she has played in the vulnerable circumstance she finds herself in.
She must make a decision--face her self-defeating patterns that have led to this situation and move on or repeat her mistakes. Her life and the lives of her two children are dependent upon the choices she makes and the chances she takes from this point forward.
Paperback: 242Pages
Genre: Memoir
Publisher: Open Books Press (July 22, 2014)
ASIN: B00M17OXYO
Twitter hashtag: #EFaithPooler
Ever Faithful To His Lead: My Journey to Memoir is available as an e-book and paperback at Amazon.
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About the Author: Kathleen Pooler is an author and a retired Family Nurse Practitioner whose memoir, Ever Faithful to His Lead: My Journey Away From Emotional Abuse, published on July 28.2014 and work-in-progress sequel, Hope Matters: A Memoir are about how the power of hope through her faith in God helped her to transform, heal and transcend life’s obstacles and disappointments: domestic abuse, divorce, single parenting, loving and letting go of an alcoholic son, cancer and heart failure to live a life of joy and contentment. She believes that hope matters and that we are all strengthened and enlightened when we share our stories.
She lives with her husband Wayne in eastern New York.
Twitter @kathypooler
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One of her stories “The Stone on the Shore” is published in the anthology: “The Woman I’ve Become: 37 Women Share Their Journeys From Toxic Relationships to Self-Empowerment” by Pat LaPointe, 2012.
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